Failure

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What is to be a failure? What does it really mean to fail? Is failing just a social construction?

Nobody likes to fail or feel like what they do is not up to standards. Everyone tells you to succeed, that you’ll get there one day. So, what are you supposed to do when this doesn’t happen? How are you expected to keep pushing forward when all your efforts don’t achieve your goal?

Being 19 and feeling like your world is collapsing, that an energized young adult is supposed to conquer the world, but right now, the world is conquering her. You fail, you get back up and try again. You try harder. You push yourself more. You study more. You work more. You think more. You try again. You fail once again…

This vicious circle is life, and you are expected to be able to handle it, and how are you to do so? There aren’t any classes about it, no one teaches you, but then you’ll just get an older person that will just say “that’s life, deal with it” or “been there, done that, bought the t-shirt“. Does this comfort you in any way or form? NO!

Ok, so now if you are giving 110% of yourself once again. And of course, it doesn’t work out. They tell you to look at it from another perspective. You do that, but that entails throwing all your previous efforts out the window. They’ll then say that it was a learning curve and that you take it into account, don’t forget it and continue forward never looking back. How are you to do that? Your blood, sweat and tears don’t mean absolutely anything in the whole scheme of life. 

Late teenage years, the last year before your reach your twenties. Your twenties, the time everyone finds themselves, settles down, moves out, finds a job, get married, has children. So, all your actions are quite literally defining. Then you’ll get a wise hat, that says, “I didn’t get a job until I was 27, I didn’t move out until I was 30…” Anything to try to make you feel better about, everything that is making you anxious. Does this help? No. Do you really think comfort from a failure helps? Sorry, not sorry.

You are asked when you’re little, what do you want to be when you grow up? So, you can’t even live a peaceful childhood, everything moulds you and creates the path you are to follow. And if you are to define a new path, there aren’t any training wheels. You then all of sudden are in college where every action quite literally defines the next big step in your life. You are 16 trying to think of what you are good enough at to live from, you think you find the answer, so you pursue it. Oh! But what a shock, you were wrong. Therefore, the last two years of your life where just a “learning curve”. Now, are you supposed to keep your head down, and get through it and succumb to the educational system, are you supposed to start again, or rebel? Any option is wrong.

The lack of motivation, the mental and physical exhaustion from giving your 110% every day is wearing you out. But, of course now you just must push a little bit more and then summer. The amazing sentence: in summer you can rest and reset, forget about everything. Are you really expected to do this? If you do, don’t be shocked if you start of on the wrong foot, because believe me you will.

Have you ever heard “I loved university; I wish I could go back. Make the most of it while you can”? Make the most of it? I’m sorry? Enjoy something that sucks the living life out of you, that brainwashes you to the max. Oh and definitely cherish your young years, because after wards everything goes downhill. Well, where can I take my name of this list? because that fate of this being the summit of my life, is extremely depressing and I don’t want to accept it. I want to make my own path, but in this world, there are billions and one little person to outstand, be better than the rest of the world, to be the best is a tad daunting. You don’t have to be exceptional, but could you really live with yourself if you didn’t try?

After all of this, I have realised that life is mean, not fair, and never will be. Everyone has difficulties, nobody asked for them, nobody asked to be here. You think of just giving up, but then you think “oh wait, that sunset in the summer over the sea, that alfresco dinner at night fighting off the mosquitoes, the smell of the petrichor, bellowing laughs of family and friends, maybe if they could do it, I can“. You want to be able to offer the future generations these experiences you’ve had the honour to witness, so you carry on. Your heart breaks a little knowing you are pushing towards something you don’t even know about, maybe it will never come, or maybe it’s right in front of you.

You now must give that “little” push, the one you are afraid of, since you don’t know whether the push will get you over the finish line or over the edge. You stand up tall in front of a mirror, you look yourself in the mirror, you ask yourself “do you know who I am?”. And then finally, you stand to fight another day.

However, right now that’s not my case. I’m going to go watch Fast and Furious 10, as if I had money and hadn’t just spent more than a grand on driving lessons, since I push myself, give my best and it isn’t enough. Then tomorrow, I will look at myself in the mirror and persevere, because that’s what it’s all about, resilience. I’ll then bury myself in notes from university, try and study five centuries of history, 77 art work pieces, two languages fluently, which you still haven’t mastered, because that decision the 16 year old me made, was the wrong one, and now I’m paying the price, also go to work, being the only one who does in your class, so you stand a disadvantage with regards to grades. But hey, it’s life isn’t it? Suck it up!

From The bright and shinning one.

XXX

INJUSTICE

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2020 is like being a part in a film, every month there is a new plot twist, it isn’t a comedy or a romance film it’s a horror film in all it’s glory.

JANUARY

  • Australian bush fires, millions of animal deaths, people left without houses…
  • Iranian General Qasem Soleimani killed in US drone strike, making half the population think the WWIII was going to occur.
  • Corona Virus outbreak in Wuhan, China that slowly spread across the world causing thousands of deaths, and a global lockdown.
  • Prince Harry and Meghan Markle announce that they are stepping down from there Royal duties.
  • Iran launches ballistic missiles at two military bases in Iraq, injuring American soldiers.
  • A Ukrainian flight crashes in Tehran, Iran, killing all 176 passengers on board.
  • The impeachment trial for President Donald Trump begins.
  • Kobe and Gigi Bryant, along with seven other passengers, died in a helicopter crash in Calabasas, California.
  • The United Kingdom withdraws from the European Union.

FEBRUARY

  • Trump is acquitted by the Senate on both articles of impeachment.
  • Harvey Weinstein is found guilty of third-degree rape and first-degree criminal sexual act.
  • Locusts swarm across East Africa which leads Somalia to declare national emergency, largest in 25 years.

MARCH

  • Sen. Elizabeth Warren drops out of the 2020 presidential race.
  • Italy becomes the first country to implement a nationwide lockdown.
  • Dow plunges 2,997 points in the worst drop since 1987 amid coronavirus fears.
  • The 2020 Summer Olympics, which were supposed to take place in Tokyo, are postponed until 2021.

APRIL

  •  Global coronavirus cases surpass one million.
  • Officials in Wuhan, China, lift the city-wide lockdown after 76 days.
  • Sen. Bernie Sanders dropped out of the 2020 race, making former Vice President Joe Biden the presumptive Democratic nominee in the race against President Donald Trump.
  • The state of New York alone has the highest number of coronavirus cases than any country in the world.

MAY

  • Prison riot leaves more than 40 dead and many injured at Los Llanos jail.
  • Murder or death of George Floyd.

JUNE

  • Ebola is back.
  • Riots all over the world about #blacklivesmatter.

As you can probably tell 2020 is a roller coaster but it’s only going down hill with no brakes.

I’m not going to speak about Covid-19 or point fingers at who or what I think the culprate is, because I feel like everybody has had enough of it, even though it all originated in Wuhan, China I seriously don’t think anybody would want to cause such a devastation even if they had ulterior motives. We just have to deal with it, and every country has there own way of getting out of this pandemic, so we should just sit tight now and deal with what the Government states whether we like it or not.

It’s very hard and infuriating watching people disobey the law from the sidelines, some Governments only have placed guidelines and not laws, and thousands of people think they’re above this, these guidelines are definitely not taken seriously, if every country had the same rules, it would be a much easier process, we would all be free from this pandemic together. Ignoring the fact that each of us is at a different stage, at least we wouldn’t be so confused.

The reason I’ve decided to write again since last year is because as many of you probably know injustice and I don’t get a long in any way, shape or form.

On the 25th May 2020 in Minneapolis, Minnesota George Floyd an African-American, died at the hands of officer Chauvin, the police were called since Floyd paid at a shop with fake money, this officer and 4 others attendend the scene, George hesistated to get out of his car, so this cruel man dragged him out and knelt on his neck, a restraining move NEVER taught across the whole of america, crushing his airways. The other officers didn’t do anything and the people filming couldn’t, he finally died and the main cause was lack of oxygen.

When this information blew up, the black community didn’t stand still, these people have always been treated as a minority world wide, and 2020 just seemed like the best year to start acting out against police brutality, they have had to suffer many years, but not anymore. Most of the world has joined them in there fight, white people are privileged whether you like to admit it or not. With all the support and protests the main officer has been charged with third-degree murder and second-degree manslaughter and the others have been fired.

These riots all over the States are impressive, some are peaceful some aren’t, but who can blame them. All over social media I have seen a black man get shot in the heart by a white police man, extreme injuries by rubber bullets or stabs in the face, people getting dragged from their hair by riot police, pregnant woman being tazed, car windows being smashed, police who vandilize there own vehiches so they can blame protestors, cities going up in literal flames, looting in stores, Trump hiding in a bunker while his country is plotting against him, Spain getting called trump supporters, just because we have an extreme right political party called VOX, applauds his actions.

Oh, and just to let all the people that live in Spain know, there was a Policía Nacional officer, who yesterday decided to use the same knee position like Chauvin. Our country is up there right next to the USA, on police brutality, racism and xenophobia, we aren’t innocent.

Apart from all of that, if it seems a lot just hold on tight I haven’t finished, there is a group called Anonymous, decentralized international activist/hacktivist collective/movement that is widely known for its various cyber attacks against several governments, government institutions and government agencies, corporations, and the Church of Scientology. They first appeared in 2003, and now they’re back and truly I couldn’t be more happy but scared at the same time.

Anonymous after George Floyds murder, has come to stop all the the police brutality and white supremacy, so far they have unconverder a 92 paged list where everyone who was involved in the Epstein case has been named, proof that Trump has raped a 13 year old girl and many more, they were paid off to not speak, princess Diana’s death wasn’t an accident, she knew about the Royal family being involved in a sex ring, the same happened to Michael Jackson(this one still hasn´t got 100% proof), Avicci calling out for help because he knew to much, the Vatican rapping children and last but not least, this group has almost taken down the 100% of child pornogaphy sites in a couple of days.

Every body who has Internet should know about this, and most people look up to Anonymous, they say everything how it is and now that Trump has declared the martial law all over the United States even more so. They don’t want to be leaders they just are tired of people not being fair. There is always that part in the back of my mind which is quite skeptical about all of this, but at this point in time I seriously don’t think we have anything to loose.

I can’t express how I feel right now, it is absolutely appauling, they say nothing like this has happened since the Martin Luther King era, so if you think all the years black people have had to suffer in silence, until know. George was the little water drop to make the glass spill over.

Black lives matter, minority’s are still a thing and if you don’t believe that I hope this helps you get the rock you´ve been living under off your head. The States, Spain, England…. Staying quiet is acceptance, that is not what we won’t, you shouldn’t care what people think about you if you know you’re doing the right thing, that is not letting more innocent people DIE.

Not every police man is bad. One person shouldn’t be reason to tar the image of a community or race, this century is all about acceptance and open minds, way too many years have passed for things not to have changed.

My way if fighting and supporting is speaking out for what’s correct, what’s yours?

My love goes out to everybody who is fighting.

From The bright and shinning one.

XXX

Grupo Arcoíris.

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The grupo ARCOÍRIS or translated in to english would be the rainbow group, it’s an organization that in 2018 my school colleagues and I formed.

We started this group after we had been given a talk about genders and orientations, basically about the LGBTI+ community in general. The association arcoíris, is trying to become a national movement by forming groups in as many high schools as possible, so that then these groups can inform other people, learn and overall have an amazing time fighting for peoples rights, as well as normalizing the whole communitty, since even though we are in the 21st century some people still are EXTREMELY hostile towards them and can’t get their heads around the fact that not all people are male or female, and that there aren’t just heterosexual relationships…

Most people think that LGBTI+ people are a minority even though they really aren’t, to be exact 50% of the worlds population are in the community and the other 50% aren’t. Also there are many people that just don’t understand it, and that is where we come in. Slowly but surely we will make the world a fair place and a safe place in which EVERYBODY is accepted. We need people to fight.

Focusing on the group in my school, we have had many meetings and get togethers to inform ourselves on the subject, we have given many talks not just in our school, but also to many other schools, in front of hundreds of people (I’m not exagerating), we have created an instagram account called @lluviadecolores__, where people can ask us for help…, we have started to create stories so that we can read them to the children in primary, as if we start making them realize at a younger age that it’s a normal thing and not as if it’s not just a minority or jst a group of people who are not normal, These younger children and teenagers at the end of the day, are our future and we want to make it an easy process so in the years to come these groups will not need to exist.

One important thing I would like to state is that not every member of the group are part of the community, we are formed by people that are LGBTI+ and allies. People who want equality for all.

I’m very happy to be part of this movement to change the world, I want to be part of everything that can make peoples lives much easier, it’s a pity that not everyone realises that they are making peoples life much harder than it should be.

If anyone has any questions, I would be delighted to help.

FROM THE BRIGHT AND SHINNING ONE,

NELL XXX

I’m back.

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Hey 🙂 it’s been a while.

Firstly I would just like to say sorry to the people that were reading my blog posts, but mainly I would just like to say sorry to myself for letting myself down, I was committed to doing this enabling the possibility to voice my thoughts and opinions on a platform that is extremely creative and is a free space for me just to talk about anything I could possibly be contemplating in the maze of my own mind.

I really don’t  know what I was thinking, like Nell come on be real, blogs aren’t going to write themselves, the CBA(can’t be arsed) faze isn’t just going to disappear from night to day, the stress of fourth and the likelihood of failing subjects hadn’t actually hit yet, oh and believe me it got to me and a lot.

I overestimated the capability of my brain learning 10 subjects all at once, having 19 important things to do in the last week and a half such as exams, presentations, the musical, projects… I mean I knew I could do it but to be painfully honest here, I could have got much better grades if I had just put a little bit of effort in, once in a while. I got an 8,3 out of 10, that’s the total result of my year where all of my scores are counted and divided to retrieve that number.

I genuinely can’t express the way I feel, at the peak of my stress, I knew it was all because I wanted better notes but I couldn’t have them since I tried too late and that infuriates me.  But oh well, we all learn from our mistakes, and as they say, it takes a very brave person to acknowledge their errors, so that’s me the brave 15-year-old.

So now schools up, the 4 years of pure joy are over, I’m happy, sad and scared; happy because I did it, I finished and with ¨good grades¨; sad because I think I made a huge impact at school with many things, you tend to, if you are the student of the year hehe and I can’t believe I’m going to leave it all behind. I’ll tell you guys in another post what I mean by big impact; and finally scared because I’m going to be starting a new stage of my life, which is an uncharted area for the Drake family, Bachillerato.

SUMMERS here, so I’m going to try to make the most of it and absorb every ounce of tranquillity before I step on the big, bad and petrifying new roller coaster that is college, with new fresh experiences.

YOURS SINCERELY,

THE BRIGHT AND SHINING ONE  XXX

Sorry. Perdón

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WOW! It’s been a while since I have last written on here 😐 So where should I start?

I’ve caught the flu, that’s the reason I haven’t been able to speak to all of you… I missed school for three days, which I hate doing, I love school! Don’t think I’m weird 😉

I couldn’t speak or anything I went thru five packets of tissues a day!

I’m back and “better than ever” so let’s get jiggy with it.

Love Nell x

unwell

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¡GUAUU! Ha pasado un tiempo desde la última vez que escribí aquí: | Entonces, ¿dónde debería empezar?

Pillé la gripe, esa es la razón por la que no he podido hablar con vosotros … falté al instituto durante tres días, que detesto hacer, ya que me encanta ir a clases. ¡No penseís que soy rara!

No podía hablar ni nada, ¡gasté cinco paquetes de pañuelos al día!

Pero a pesar de ello ya estoy de vuelta y “mejor que nunca”

Un saludo Nell x

 

First exam week. Primera semana de exámenes.

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Where should I start?

  • Well, like I predicted I’m going to be playing the role of the White Queen, in the play of Alice in Wonderland. My teacher Maria said that it was an extremely hard decision because Magdalena and I both acted great according to the Wonderland group, but Magdalena has a more innocent personality then I, as I’m much more confident in myself. She also said that I should think of studying performing arts, due to the fact that all the members of the Wonderland group were blown away with me, but hey YOLO (You.Only.Live.Once) so there’s no point of wasting time sulking that I didn’t get the part. I’m proud that Magdalena will be playing the main role as we all know that she will dedicate 110% to it all. They’re going to try to make the part of the White Queen longer, and also they’re going to make a ballet choreography for me to dance.

That’s enough Alice for once, this week is my first “full-on” exam week, I’ve got 5        exams but I think they’re easy enough to pass, so that’s good.

I had to do a project about a famous person so I started to investigate, and I began to read about a man called Sir Nicholas George Winton.

His story moved me so much I thought I should share it with you, this is his story:

  • He was born in Hampstead, London (England) although his parents were German Jews, they changed the family name and converted to Christianity in an effort to fit in. He had no qualifications, so he attended night school while also working at the Midland Bank. He was an incredible fencer so much so he was going to compete in the Olympics, but they were cancelled, due to the II World War. Nicholas moved to various countries giving him a vast amount of knowledge about the world. He decided to join a left-wing circle opposed to appeasement and concerned about the dangers posed by the Nazis.

He was a British Humanitarian who saved the life of 669 children, most of them Jewish from Czechoslovakia on the eve of the II World War in an operation later known as the Czech Kindertransport (German for “children’s transport”). Winton found homes for the children and arranged for their safe passage to Britain. The world found out about his work over 50 years later, in 1988. When his wife found a notebook, with pictures, names and ages of all the children he had saved. His wife gave the notebook to a journalist without him knowing; later on, he got invited to a program were some of the children he had rescued now adults were, all of a sudden everybody stood up he had no idea why and then got told that they were the children he so bravely rescued from the Holocaust.

Winton, in 2003 was then knighted by Queen Elizabeth II, for “services to humanity, in saving Jewish children from Nazi Germany occupied Czechoslovakia”. And in October of 2014 awarded the highest honour of the Czech Republic the Order of the White Lion by Czech President.

Unfortunately, in 2015 this heroic man passed away at the age of 106 but he shall forever be remembered. It truly upsets me that our world has such a horrible past, I hope we all can have this man as an example and try to make our world as amazing as it can be if we all just try.

I recommend that you watch this video it’s only a minute long: https://youtu.be/_cjgnPruTpY

I hope you like this little biography of this incredible man. Chat next week.

Nell xxx

 

 

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¿Donde debería empezar?

  • Bueno, como predije voy a interpretar el papel de la Reina Blanca, en la obra de Alicia en el país de las maravillas. Mi maestra María dijo que fue una decisión extremadamente difícil porque Magdalena y yo actuamos muy bien según el grupo de Wonderland, pero Magdalena tiene una personalidad más inocente que yo, ya que yo tengo mucha más confianza en mí misma. También dijo que debería pensar en estudiar artes escénicas, debido al hecho de que todos los miembros del grupo Wonderland se quedaron impresionados conmigo, pero oye YOLO (Solo.Vives.Una.Vez en inglés) así que no hay razón para perder el tiempo enfurruñándome, que no obtuve el papel. Estoy orgullosa de que Magdalena desempeñará el papel principal, ya que todos sabemos que dedicará el 110% a todo. Intentarán hacer más larga la parte de la Reina Blanca, y también harán una coreografía de ballet para que yo baile.
    Basta, por una vez, Alicia. Esta semana es mi primera semana de exámenes completos. Tengo 5 exámenes, pero creo que son fáciles de aprobar, así que eso es bueno.

Tuve que hacer un proyecto sobre una persona famosa, así que comencé a investigar, y empecé a leer sobre un hombre llamado Sir Nicholas George Winton.

Su historia me conmovió tanto que pensé que debería compartirla con ustedes, esta es su historia:

  • Nació en Hampstead, Londres (Inglaterra), aunque sus padres eran judíos alemanes, cambiaron su apellido y se convirtieron al cristianismo en un esfuerzo para adaptarse. No tenía calificaciones, por lo que asistió a escuela nocturna mientras trabajaba en el Midland Bank. . Era un esgrimador increíble, tanto que iba a competir en los Juegos Olímpicos, pero fueron cancelados, debido a la II Guerra Mundial. Nicholas se mudó a varios países dándole una gran cantidad de conocimiento sobre el mundo. Decidió unirse a un círculo de izquierda opuesto al apaciguamiento y preocupado por los peligros planteados por los nazis.
    Fue un humanitario británico que salvó la vida de 669 niños, la mayoría judíos de Checoslovaquia en vísperas de la II Guerra Mundial en una operación más tarde conocida como el Kindertransport checo (alemán para “transporte de niños”). Winton encontró casas para los niños y organizó su paso seguro a Gran Bretaña. El mundo se enteró de su trabajo más de 50 años después, en 1988. Cuando su esposa encontró un cuaderno, con imágenes, nombres y edades de todos los niños que había salvado. Su esposa le dio el cuaderno a un periodista sin que él lo supiera; más tarde, lo invitaron a un programa donde algunos de los niños que había rescatado ahora adultos estabán también; de repente todos se levantaron, no tenía nidea de por qué y luego le dijeron que eran los niños que tan valientemente rescató del Holocausto.

Winton, en 2003, fue nombrado caballero por la reina Isabel II, por “servicios a la humanidad, para salvar a los niños judíos de la Alemania nazi que ocupaba Checoslovaquia”. Y en octubre de 2014, el Presidente checo le otorgó el más alto honor de la República Checa “la Orden del León Blanco”.

Desafortunadamente, en 2015 este hombre heroico falleció con una edad de 106 años, pero siempre será recordado. Realmente me molesta que nuestro mundo tenga un pasado tan horrible. Espero que todos podamos tener a este hombre como ejemplo y tratemos de hacer que nuestro mundo sea tan increíble como puede ser si todos lo intentamos.

Te recomiendo que veas este video que dura solo un minuto: https://youtu.be/_cjgnPruTpY

Espero que te guste esta pequeña biografía de este increíble hombre. Hablarémos la siguiente semana.

Nell xxx

DISCLAIMER: I have obtained information from Wikipedia, image from the Telegraph.co.uk. ACLARACIÓN: he obtenido información de Wikipedia.

New season. Nueva estación.

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Autumn is finally here, my favourite season of the year apart from Winter; being able to snuggle up in a blanket or dressing-gown, looking forward to coming home from school to a cosy house, candles lit, fairy lights on in your bedroom and candles on filling the room with a comforting, delightful smell; the smell of the earth after it’s rained… What’s not to like?

First of all, the previous week was quite hectic for me, everyone says that Tercero is the hardest year hahaha banter, wait til you get to Cuarto. I had to audition three times (because I had three roles) I also had to re-audition for the role of Alice, my friend Magdalena and I went up against each other for the part. The group of teachers (the judges) A.K.A The Wonder Group, as they call themselves 😉 want-to speak to my classmate and me tomorrow because they can’t decide who Alice should be.

I’m not going to lie, I’m quite anxious because it’s most probable that she gets the part. She had auditioned for other roles and she did them so well they told her to audition for Alice, “great” and if she doesn’t get Alice the other roles won’t coincide, so you’re probably reading the blog of the future White Queen, “fun” note the sarcasm. Now you’re most likely wondering that why I auditioned for the White Queen if I don’t actually want the role (because I can’t seem to get the voice correctly or understand her personality well), I didn’t really have an option the teacher said that I should be her so she signed me up.

This is all going on in one, yes! I repeat one subject, HELP ME!

I’ll let you know how it goes on in next weeks blog, which is going to have a theme, can you guess what it’s going to be about? I will give you a hint, it’s scary.

After that, on the weekend there was no rest for the wicked, I had to help my mum A.K.A “La Rosilla” with-the family business, for a big event she was catering for. The lady whose party it was had just “recovered” from breast cancer, so she wanted to celebrate life. The theme was ‘White and fifty shades of pink’, cocktail bars, musicians, more food than I’d ever seen. She had organized as a surprise for her guests”The Dutch Diana Ross” a drag queen to sing and entertain all her friends and family, I had never seen a drag act in person so it was very intriguing, so dramatic and everyone including us aprons on and all, were up dancing.

So that’s Nelliewelly out, I hope you have an amazing week,

Make your dreams come reality by unleashing your inner sparkle.

XXX

autumn

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El otoño finalmente está aquí, mi temporada favorita del año aparte de invierno; poder acurrucarse en una manta o bata, deseando volver a casa desde la escuela a una casa acogedora, con velas encendidas, lucecitas encendidas en el dormitorio y velas para llenar la habitación con un olor reconfortante y encantador; el olor de la tierra después de haber llovido … ¿Qué más quieres?

En primer lugar, la semana anterior fue bastante agitada para mí, todo el mundo dice que Tercero es el año más difícil jajaja, espera hasta que llegues a Cuarto. Tuve que hacer tres audiciones (porque tenía tres papeles). También tuve que volver ha hacer una audición para el papel de Alicia, mi amiga Magdalena y yo nos enfrentamos para el papel. El grupo de profesores (los jueces) también conocidos como “The Wonder Group”, como le gusta llamarse a sí mismos;) quieren hablar con mi compañera y yo mañana porque no pueden decidir quién debería ser Alicia.

No voy a mentir, estoy bastante ansiosa porque es más probable que ella obtenga el papel. Ella había hecho audiciones para otros papeles y los hizo tan bien que le dijeron queinterpretara el papel para Alicia, “genial” y si no consigue a Alicia los otros papeles no encajarán, entonces probablemente estés leyendo el futuro blog de la Reina Blanca, “guay”, nótese el sarcasmo. Ahora probablemente te preguntes por qué audicioné para la Reina Blanca si no quiero el papel (porque parece que no puedo conseguir la voz correcta y no entiendo bien su personalidad), realmente no tenía una opción, la maestra dijo que yo debería ser ella, así que ella me inscribió.

Todo esto está sucediendo en una, ¡sí! Repito una asignatura, ¡SOCORRO!
Te contaré cómo va en el blog de la próxima semana, que tendrá un tema, ¿puedes adivinar de qué se tratará? Te daré una pista, da miedo.

Después de eso, el fin de semana no hubo descanso para los malvados jejeje, tuve que ayudar a mi mamá osea “La Rosilla” con el negocio familiar, para un gran evento que ella estaba preparando. La mujer de quien era la fiesta, se había “recuperado” de cáncer de mama, por lo que quería celebrar la vida. El tema era “Blanco y cincuenta sombras de rosa”, bares de cócteles, músicos, más comida de la que jamás había visto. Ella organizó una sorpresa para sus invitados “La holandesa Diana Ross”, una drag queen para cantar y entretener a todos sus amigos y familiares, nunca había visto un actuación de drag en persona, así que fue muy intrigante, tan dramático y todos, incluidos nuestros delantales, estabamos bailando.

Así que un saludo, Nelliewelly, espero que tengas una semana increíble.

Haz que tus sueños se vuelvan realidad desatando tu brillo interior.

XXX

Back to school!

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Before I start I would just like to inform you that I will be writing my blog post twice: in English and Spanish since Google translates it “wrong”

Antes de que comience, me gustaría informarle que escribiré mi publicación dos veces: en inglés y español, ya que Google lo traduce “mal”

So this year 2018 is my last year of High School, in Colmenar. It’s crazy to think that this time next year hopefully I will be studying in Málaga, in a completely new environment, with new friends and a new life; from being the veterans of the school to become a baby again.

Lot’s of people probably don’t know how the school system works here in Spain, I’m going to try my best to explain it and then I am going to write about my experience of my first week back at High School. When you reach high school A.K.A ESO (obligatory secondary school) this is for 4 years, if you’re fortunate to pass each year and don’t have to repeat the year, thus adding on your time there. After the final year (Cuarto) you either choose to carry on with education or finish then.  Following on from ESO, there are various options, but I’m choosing the baccalaureate that takes 2 years to complete and in the last year, there’s a huge, extremely difficult exam called Selectividad that grades you, depending on that grade you can get into certain universities or not.

I’m in year 4 of ESO, in this year you have to make a decision on what subjects you are choosing to focus on,  excel in or hope to ;), it gets divided into 2 categories: sciences or letters; I have chosen sciences.

My subjects this year are, Physics and Chemistry (they’re both in one subject), Biology, History, Spanish language (also Spanish Literature), Sports, Religion, English, French, Academic Mathematics and Performing Arts and Dance.

It’s really good because, in most of the subjects that I have chosen apart from the obligatory ones, we’re very few people in the class, so it’s like having private classes and it’s much easier to understand everything without too many distractions, a benefit too since they’re all very intense subjects. My favourite subject this year is Performing Arts and Dance, we’re going to be performing a play “Alice in Wonderland”, I’m going to do casting for Alice, the White Queen and the Dutchess, it’s going to be a personal challenge as I have some very musically talented classmates who I shall be going up against.  

Wish me luck!

According to my teacher, she is going to try to contact some of her colleagues, so that we can perform in a proper theatre, and all the money we could possibly raise, donate it to a charity. I will let you know how it goes on.

But for now, I have to get my head down and get the best grades possible.

Before I go, I just wanted to say that some of my friends at school and so on, do not understand why I’m writing a blog, they think it’s ridiculous “why would anybody care about that” they say, nevertheless I think it’s a way to escape from my hectic school life and teenage life, not everyone is as fortunate as me to have a roof over my head, a family that inspires me and connections to this massive world -The Internet- haters will always be hating, hence why you should do whatever as long as it makes you happy and doesn’t affect anybody negatively.

Nells out. X

EN ESPAÑOL

Antes de comenzar, me gustaría informarle que escribiré mi publicación en dos ocasiones: en inglés y español, ya que Google lo traduce “mal”

Así que este año 2018 es mi último año de secundaria, en Colmenar IES Los Montes. Es una locura pensar que esta vez el año que viene espero estar estudiando en Málaga, en un entorno completamente nuevo, con nuevos amigos y una nueva vida; de ser los veteranos del Instituto a volver a ser un bebé.

Mucha gente probablemente no sabe cómo funciona el sistema escolar aquí en España (ya que, la mayoría de los que leen mis blogs son ingleses), voy a hacer todo lo posible para explicarlo y luego voy a escribir sobre mi experiencia de mi primera semana en el Instituto. Cuando llegues a la ESO (Escuela Secundaria Obligatoria) esto se da para 4 años, si eres afortunado de aprobar cada año y no tienes que repetir el año, aumentando así tu tiempo allí. Después del último año (Cuarto) o eliges continuar con tu educación o terminar allí tus estudios. Después de la ESO, hay varias opciones, pero elijo el bachillerato que dura 2 años y en el último año, hay un examen enorme y extremadamente difícil llamado Selectividad que te califica, dependiendo de la calificación en la que puedas participar ciertas universidades o no.

Estoy en el cuarto año de ESO, en este año debes tomar una decisión sobre las asignaturas que eliges enfocarte, destacar o desear;), se divide en 2 categorías: ciencias o letras; Escogí ciencias. Mis asignaturas de este año son Física y Química (ambas están en una asignatura), Biología, Historia, Lengua española (también literatura española), Educación Física , Religión, Inglés, Francés, Matemáticas Académicas y Artes escénicas y Danza.

Es realmente bueno porque en la mayoría de las asignaturas que he elegido aparte de las obligatorias, somos muy pocas personas en la clase, así que es como tener clases particulares y es mucho más fácil entender todo sin mucha distracción, un beneficio también ya que todos son asignaturas muy intensas. Mi asignatura favorita este año es, Artes escénicas y Danza, vamos a presentar una obra de teatro “Alicia en el país de las Maravillas”, voy a hacer casting para Alicia, la Reina Blanca y el Dutchess, va a ser un desafío personal ya que tengo algunos compañeros de clase con mucho talento musical a los que enfrentaré.

¡Deséame suerte!

Según mi maestra, tratará de ponerse en contacto con algunos de sus colegas, para que podamos actuar en un teatro adecuado, y todo el dinero que podamos recaudar, donarlo a una obra de caridad. Te dejaré saber cómo sucede.

Pero por ahora, tengo que incar los codos y obtener las mejores calificaciones posibles.

Antes de irme, solo quería decir que algunos de mis amigos en la escuela y demás, no entienden por qué estoy escribiendo un blog, piensan que es ridículo “porque a nadie le importa”, dicen, sin embargo, creo que es una forma de escapar de mi agitada vida escolar y adolescente, no todo el mundo es tan afortunadoscomo yo para tener un techo sobre mi cabeza, una familia que me inspira y conexiones con este mundo masivo – El Internet-. Los que odian siempre odiarán, por lo tanto deberías hacer lo que sea mientras te haga feliz y no afecte negativamente a nadie.

Nell. X

 

1st Year of High School, Primer año de ESO
Last year of High School, Último año de ESO

 

My Journey Begins

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Thanks for joining me!

My name is Nell Drake, I’m 15 years old “halfway to thirty” as I would say. I have lived in the Montes de Málaga (Andalucía) for 14 years.

In this blog, I’m going to write about my crazy teenage life on the ‘mount’ and my thoughts and opinions.  I hope to introduce other inspiring friends, who too are forging their way uniquely through life.

You’re probably thinking, ‘why bright, shining one?’ Well, it’s the meaning of my name NELL and in my opinion, it describes my personality perfectly; I’m a cheerful, outgoing, bilingual, charismatic and quite a lazy teenager, in other words, I’m nocturnal and love to sleep in. I’m definitely not afraid to speak my mind (I tend to get into trouble quite a lot because of that). One of my most outstanding qualities is that I always try my best at whatever I set my mind to. That’s just a little about me.

I hope you stick around to read my blog and to share our opinions about a lot of subjects together.

My main dream that I would love to achieve with this blog is to create an online community.world
Nell.